It should not be over

It´s in the boots,
with the ragged blue jeans,
in the dress with the jacket,
that´s his
And the scent of a long lost friend
Some flowers, from the meadow below
And the warm tarmac,
which should be the end

Your hair should be free

It´s in the lullabies,
on the roof of an old Caddy
Or a car of any kind
And I´m your travelling buddy
I´ll be who ever you like
´Cause that´s me
I´m the one
One step behind

I´ts in the nod,
the way your head reacts to the sound,
and the look
which says if we´d hide
we´d never be found
You´re the one from the stories
You´re the tragedy in my comedy

Now the solo

The woolen socks trying to get
over my knees
Hand out from the window
And your hands over the wheel
Looking for my bruised knee
or my shoulder
Yeah that´s you
Later on me

It´s in you
All the bad I look for in good
All the illusions that would
never match with the truth
It´s in you
The reality from the movies
That say it´s not ever going to be
worth it

It all was in you

It´s in the demand
that says I should break
Watching your mistakes
Loving them all, one by one
You kiss me in the morning
When it should be night
My fingers are dancing

You made me love it right

It should never be over 1995

Naomi, Elle & Kate

1990-luku: huippumallit ja rokkarit yhdessä, nahkatakkeja, korkeita korkeja, tupakka huulessa, mustavalkoisia kuvia, punaista huulipunaa, isoja aurinkolaseja, Johnny Depp & Kate Moss, maiharit lyhyen mekon kanssa.

Keräilin lapsena ja aikuisenakin kivoja kuvia, ja jos tykästyin johonkin julkimoon aloin keräilemäään siitä juttuja vihkot täyteen. Leikkasin Seiskasta kuvia ja laitoin ne muovitaskuun tai liimasin vihkoon. Tämän käsittelyn saivat muun muassa Mika Häkkinen ja Lola Odusoga, Michael Jacksonista nyt puhumattakaan. Mutta paikan varhaisteinisydämessäni sai myös Naomi Campbell. Ajattelin, että Naomi on Michael Jacksonin ystävä ja tietenkin tykkäsin siitä osaksi juurikin siitä syystä. Ajattelin, että kun Naomi nyt luonnollisesti osallistuu mun ja Michael Jacksonin häihinkin...

Naomi Campbellin lisäksi lehtien palstoilla koikkaroivat muutkin huippumallit täyttäen pienen pääni viihdemaailman loppumattomalla tulvalla, ja pari kuvaa on syöpynyt verkkokalvoille ikuisiksi ajoiksi.

Yhdessä Naomi Campbell katselee sivulle sininen denim-liivi yllään, jalassaan punaiset PVC-housut, ja kultaisia koruröykkiöitä ranteissaan. Toisessa Elle MacPherson makaa jonkun ison koiran kanssa lattialla, mustat aurinkolasit silmillä ja leiskuvan oranssi tukka vapaana. Lapsuudenkodistani ne lehtileikkeet vielä löytyisivät, mutta etsiessäni niitä netin ihmeellisestä maailmasta mitä monipuolisimmilla hakusanoilla, en kuvia päässyt näkemään.

Lehdistä sain lukea jännittäviä tarinoita huumeiden käytöstä, näyttelijöiden ja rokkareiden ja mallien kolmiodraamoista, väkivallasta. Huippumallit perustivat ravintoloita ja kahviloita, olivat kuin yhtä suurta perhettä. Oi sitä yhteisöllisyyttä! Naomi Campbell teki levynkin, jonka tietenkin ostin myöhemmin ja omistan edelleen. Aivan kuten Naomi-nukenkin. Tämä kaikki jännittävä siis ennen hulluuskohtauksia ja alaisten pieksemistä, julkisia vieroitusjaksoja ja rumia narkkaripoikaystäviä, kai. Ja tietenkin kun rakastuin tulisesti Johnny Deppiin, piti alkaa vähän pitämään myös Kate Mossista. Mikä Hollywoodin Bonnie & Clyde!

90-luku edustaa mulle nykyään jonkinlaista vapautta, rakkautta ja rokkenrollia. Mallitkin halusivat olla kapinallisia. Seuraavassa kolme mallisuosikkiani: Naomi, Elle ja Kate.

Ja vaikkei olekaan sitä rokkenrollia, niin huippumalleja kuitenkin seuraavassa.

All of the stories are unfinished

You give me the creeps of a certain kind
Without you in my life I´d do just fine
But there´s something that keeps me hanging there
like on a tree, getting nowhere
Swinging in the wind,
seesaw, seesaw

You say you´ll lose your mind
as the hours and steps go by
But you need me to make you go crazy,
need my help to make your days hazy
Me to walk away,
clop and clatter

There´s something everytime
You don´t give me anything,
not at the same time
You leave me begging for more
And I try to fight back
Wave goodbye and turn my back

You don´t mind how many times I leave
´Cause leaving means I leave you be
until the next time, which comes again
And we pretend it never happened
We start all over,
again and again

You look for answers without making any questions
so life is lived without exceptions
I try to make it hard for you,
so I´d get something out of you
Waiting for deluge or flood,
drip and drip

The thing is that we can´t decide
which way to go,
wrong or right
We keep our options open wide
We rock and roll up all night
Reassuring morning will be just fine

You think I care and sometimes I do
I try to be as cold as the chills I get from you
Faking I´m asleep, faking a lot of things
Need someone to dig deeper, not just to begin
Claw and grind

You need something else and I know that
That´s the reason I leave and turn my back
I give you nothing except the truth
You and me we are no good
Sigh, sigh

As the morning wakes, I come
knock on a door,
we just had fun
I try to make you smile
but I get my kicks from tears
Reassuring next time will be fine
though I got my fears

There´s something everytime
You don´t give me anything,
not at the same time
You leave me begging for more
And I try to fight back
Wave goodbye and turn my back

All of them, vampires, you

My man is a vampire

All I wanted, all the things I need
Needles and burn marks,
revolution inside of me
I mean lips, smiles, teeth

He had his attics, his addicts
He had his smokes
He had his meager laughs,
he had his jokes

Decades of doubt and distrust
Deceit, delusion and pure lust
Tongue is twisted,
lips are cruel
Mind quite wicked
"Eyes must take me for a fool"

His hair was dark, was it light?
His voice was smooth
His eyes were the mirror,
mouth just couldn´t tell the truth

Come and live in me,
then leave in me,
let´s make a home
"I´ll come inside,
but I´ll never be your own"

He lived in a house, his home
The yard had a swing
He smoked his reefer on terrace,
that´s how his mornings begin

Looking, watching,
take notes,
"eyes need to be closed"
Say "shhh" when it´s time
And come real close

He wanders, he roams
He plays it well
He´s the engine, he roars
He kisses, then he tells

It´s rock, paper, scissors,
with stones
"But baby, kisses do no harm"
With all of you vampires, stoned
"Just a kiss and we are armed"

The faces are changing,
he´s different,
maybe it´s plain to see
They´re tuning their tones
"Go on, get turned on by me"

Pleading for chances,
bleeding for paper
´cause on paper it´s true
Trying to make it happen,
trying to make it with you

My man is a vampire
Who knew he was you

Hey, there

Hey there, wait just a while
I saw you diving from the other side
Looking down, gazing waves
Are you looking for somebody's face?

You don´t speak, not with words
But that´s ok until it hurts
You don´t look, you don´t smile
Hey there, just wait for a while

You know I watch, you know I stare
You know I come from Nowhere
I guess you think you have won
Just because you are Someone

Your skin is moist, your hair is wet
I think I want to be your pet
Take me with, put me in a box
I want you to open up all of the locks

Don´t you run, ´cause I want to hide
I want to dive to the other side
I want your side to be all mine
Just stop, just wait for a while

We can go through the reef of Death
I laugh when I think of you as my pet
I really don´t mean much anything
So come now, let´s have a swim

Your hand is grabbing mine too tight
Was it something I said that wasn´t right?
It´s just that I´m alone and so are you
Dive with me to the blue lagoon

Skin´s covered with the pearls of the sea
That´s all I want to grow on me
Show me the way just how to live
I guess I want you to give me everything

Hey there, you swim too fast
Are we there yet, at last?
Don´t you look at me with those eyes
Eyes that say that I´m all lies

If I´m all lies then so are you
You´re not from the blue lagoon
The sand is dark, the wind is cold
You´re not the one I want to hold

Why did you stop to gaze at the waves?
There was no-one, not a face
You´re not scared, not even alone
Now let me go and dive back home

"Hey there, just wait for a while"
I hear a voice that´s almost mine
I see a face right between the waves
Should´ve not come, but still I came